seriously sometimes i do tink life is jus too unfair for me...everything cum to me lik a current at once and i felt realli pressurized...

the happy-go-lucky daph had gone mental broke down today...no smiles were seen on her face after enrichment today...not much talking to others...but rather keeping quiet and sulking...

yeahh my tap had gone unscrewed today...=/the first time i had really broken down...maybe im aint tat strong tat i thought i was...everything had change since secondary school...the life...the laughter, the unity...the freedom almost EVERYTHING...i rmbed clearly when im in pri sch...i broke down even for the minor things...but this time is totally different...maybe this had all been written as a book of dairy and never happen again...

i had realli felt presurized, depressed and upset...until i carnt control and cried it all out...i feel tat is hard for me to put a smile on my face this times...i feel tat 210 bond had become much more fragile after every class project...i feel tat im drifting more and more far away from 210...

maybe is jus tat ive changed...or maybe i had set an expectation jus too high for me to achieve...maybe maybe maybe...i seriously jus hope to do the best of my ability and to thrive as high as i can..but this is never ever noticed by anyone...how much effort i put in i still get the same amount of work, the scoldings and ranting from ppl...or maybe u could jus say tat ive treat every word u all said and i heard too seriously...although sometimes i maybe smiling...but i can tell u is not a really good feeling im experiencing down in my heart...

im a person who treat everything seriously and put in my effort to do beyond my limits...even little words tat hurt me...i will feel hurt and sad...maybe is not hurtful when it is said to u guys but to me YES...and i mean it...for ppl who know me long enough...u should noe tat lim daph is treating everything so seriously all the hurtful words...tat i will remeber it in my lifetime...

maybe is jus wrong for me to be good in a kind of subject called art...but tats how i born to be...life is gettin much more pressurized and stressful as the day goes by...and 210 is lik a train who cannot overcome obstacles...and had mini arguements...until today when some of the 6 idiots broke down...i seriously hope u can see how much amount of effort we had placed in...how much time we had wasted...how well we hoped 210 can be...and not opposing u guys.

stayin bak every single day...painting and sketching...neglecting homework and cum sch to chiong tats wad the 6 of us had done for the past 4 days this week...tryin to finish as much as possible...even pon-ing cca or cancelling their tuition...this is how much we hoped 210 can thrive!

but...u guys jus treat us as invisible or rather ur "chu qi tong" till we finally feel the pressurization, stressfulness and broken down...u noe how much effort we had put in...and nothing was gained=/

i hoped u guys will really understand after today incident...THANKS TO:those from 210 who had put in their best comforting me...and esp. shumin,kelly,gwendolyn to hav tak their time off from their class to comfort and talk me out

to jieyi,bryan,garlic,jiansheng...to hav to chiong the cny decor among the 4 of u guys... sry...i realli had no mood to continue painting or rather decorating...SORRAYE D;